Title: Shattered feelings [oneshot]
Author: Fye
Rating: I don’t know how to rate
Genre: slightly angst, depression, character death, attempt suicide, etc.
Pairing: Yuu x Kouyou [Aoi x Uruha]
Disclaimer: I don’t own them
Summary: the deep depression
Comment: nothing to comment but do enjoy. Credits to Eyes set to kill for the nice song that inspires e to write.


Shattered glass. That’s how he felt, the moment the doctor declared the death of his lover; everything ends so soon, everything changes. He went back to the apartment they shared together. Silence broke as he remembers the songs. The songs keep on playing in his mind, the last song that the young guitarist played and sings for him before he is gone. Gone to the other side of the world. Its all came to sense, the other tried to tell him what he felt, but it’s too late. Too late, there is nothing that he can do. Yuu listen again to the songs that he manages to record, Kouyou’s singing before he left the world. Yuu found a note inside his drawer, a lyrics with a meaning beside them.


“Glass hailed form the sky tonight, I couldn’t hide to save my life” Aoi can’t you feel that I need a time alone? I suffered a lot since the day I was born to this world, I grew up in this pitiful life which I want it to end soon, but what can I do? There’s nothing that can save me from all the suffering. I love you Yuu.


“Standing drenched from open wounds. You took my hand and pull me through” Aoi, you risk your live trying to save me from all that suffering, although I told you to leave me alone, but you won’t. Even I warned you that the more you know me, the more you feel the suffering, but you ignore me. In fact you open your heart for me. Trying to understand me. You told me that everything should be share d together. So both of us can suffer together. You are amazing. That is the part which makes me love you more. I love you Yuu.

“I want to give you everything, I’ll give you my all, because you gave me” since the day you save me, I want to give you everything that I can to make you happy, everything that makes you stay with me. I promised myself to love you, to take care of your feeling as a token of appreciation for saving me from the lonesome world. I love you Yuu.

“You gave me your lips a gentle kiss. The medicine to cure my pain” you always been so gentle to me, you tried not to hurt my feelings. You always make me feel comfortable. You want me to feel the happiness together with you. You want me to forget my past. Your kiss, your touch is amazing, so gentle, and so delicate. You make the pain go away; you are my medicine, my addiction. I love you, Yuu.

“Listen to all this glass shatter” Aoi I admit you are everything but my past is dreadfull, even though you told me to forget them but I can’t. It keeps haunting me. I just want you. I love you, Yuu.

“I pierced my ears and made them bleed, now sounds so beautiful, cause you’re beautiful, you’re beautiful” you leave me for a while since people from your work calling you; telling that they need you to help them, although you applied to have a holiday today. You leave me here, alone, but you manage to tell me to wait for you. Hours pass, but there were no signs of you. The pain; when the glass that smash due to my depression, it feels good. I felt calm, even it become so beautiful when the broken glass pierce my hand, the hand that you love when I played the guitar. Nothing can stop me now. I need you. I love you, Yuu.


“I want to give you everything, I’ll give you my all, because you gave me, you gave me your lips a gentle kiss. The medicine to cure my pain” I’m sorry baby, but I have to leave you, although I love you. But I can’t find that side of me which can make you happy. My past is haunting me. Can I leave you to your friends instead? Can I trust you to live without me? I’m sorry but I love you, Yuu.

As he finished reading what Kouyou wrote, tears began to drop continuously. The note Kouyou wrote while he tried to kill himself slowly, Yuu can’t help it. He cried and cried. He saw a knife near him. “Uruha I love you too, let’s meet in heaven together ne?”


THE END.


Current status: I felt empty. *sobs* MJ died.