oneshot
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Title: Shattered feelings [oneshot]
Author: Fye
Rating: I don’t know how to rate
Genre: slightly angst, depression, character death, attempt suicide, etc.
Pairing: Yuu x Kouyou [Aoi x Uruha]
Disclaimer: I don’t own them
Summary: the deep depression
Comment: nothing to comment but do enjoy. Credits to Eyes set to kill for the nice song that inspires e to write.
Shattered glass. That’s how he felt, the moment the doctor declared the death of his lover; everything ends so soon, everything changes. He went back to the apartment they shared together. Silence broke as he remembers the songs. The songs keep on playing in his mind, the last song that the young guitarist played and sings for him before he is gone. Gone to the other side of the world. Its all came to sense, the other tried to tell him what he felt, but it’s too late. Too late, there is nothing that he can do. Yuu listen again to the songs that he manages to record, Kouyou’s singing before he left the world. Yuu found a note inside his drawer, a lyrics with a meaning beside them.
“Glass hailed form the sky tonight, I couldn’t hide to save my life” Aoi can’t you feel that I need a time alone? I suffered a lot since the day I was born to this world, I grew up in this pitiful life which I want it to end soon, but what can I do? There’s nothing that can save me from all the suffering. I love you Yuu.
“Standing drenched from open wounds. You took my hand and pull me through” Aoi, you risk your live trying to save me from all that suffering, although I told you to leave me alone, but you won’t. Even I warned you that the more you know me, the more you feel the suffering, but you ignore me. In fact you open your heart for me. Trying to understand me. You told me that everything should be share d together. So both of us can suffer together. You are amazing. That is the part which makes me love you more. I love you Yuu.
“I want to give you everything, I’ll give you my all, because you gave me” since the day you save me, I want to give you everything that I can to make you happy, everything that makes you stay with me. I promised myself to love you, to take care of your feeling as a token of appreciation for saving me from the lonesome world. I love you Yuu.
“You gave me your lips a gentle kiss. The medicine to cure my pain” you always been so gentle to me, you tried not to hurt my feelings. You always make me feel comfortable. You want me to feel the happiness together with you. You want me to forget my past. Your kiss, your touch is amazing, so gentle, and so delicate. You make the pain go away; you are my medicine, my addiction. I love you, Yuu.
“Listen to all this glass shatter” Aoi I admit you are everything but my past is dreadfull, even though you told me to forget them but I can’t. It keeps haunting me. I just want you. I love you, Yuu.
“I pierced my ears and made them bleed, now sounds so beautiful, cause you’re beautiful, you’re beautiful” you leave me for a while since people from your work calling you; telling that they need you to help them, although you applied to have a holiday today. You leave me here, alone, but you manage to tell me to wait for you. Hours pass, but there were no signs of you. The pain; when the glass that smash due to my depression, it feels good. I felt calm, even it become so beautiful when the broken glass pierce my hand, the hand that you love when I played the guitar. Nothing can stop me now. I need you. I love you, Yuu.
“I want to give you everything, I’ll give you my all, because you gave me, you gave me your lips a gentle kiss. The medicine to cure my pain” I’m sorry baby, but I have to leave you, although I love you. But I can’t find that side of me which can make you happy. My past is haunting me. Can I leave you to your friends instead? Can I trust you to live without me? I’m sorry but I love you, Yuu.
As he finished reading what Kouyou wrote, tears began to drop continuously. The note Kouyou wrote while he tried to kill himself slowly, Yuu can’t help it. He cried and cried. He saw a knife near him. “Uruha I love you too, let’s meet in heaven together ne?”
THE END.
Current status: I felt empty. *sobs* MJ died.
Labels: oneshot
kito kawarazu aishiteru
2:44 PM
Don’t ever leave me [one shot]
Friday, April 10, 2009
Title: Don’t ever leave me [one shot]
Author: Fye
Pairing: Aoi and Uruha.
Genre: Self harm, gore, pure romance, slightly angst.
Rate: PG16 will change to PG18.
Summary: Alone. In the dark room; crying and calling for his name. Though it hurts when someone he loves the most doesn’t know about his feeling. He tried to forget those moments when he have to suffer, suffer the feeling of emptiness. Only the feeling of the knife cutting his flesh calms him down.
Disclaimer: sadly they are not mine but the whole fiction is mine.
Comment: well let just see if I’m capable of doing a fiction. I’m sorry Aoi!!! Eto ne... Sorry for the grammar error, was in a rush to finish this story soon.* Re-editing this story once again due to that time I was rushing to finish the story as soon as possible.
Aoi has been keeping his feeling for a long time, though he really wants to tell the younger how he felt about him. He wants to tell the younger, the feelings that he kept since long time ago. He was too afraid; those negative feeling keeps on telling him to be quiet. Only keeping the feeling to himself. Once he tried to tell the younger how he felt, his thought went wild, as if someone in his mind talking to him he would get a rejection if he tell and end up he would be called as the most disgusting person who have fall in love with his own type. He also thought if the younger knew he would probably quit from the band and never wants to see him again.
Although he cannot touch nor feel the younger body, seeing the younger during band practice is more than enough for him, though he want to feel the younger so badly, he even want to feel the feeling to be in love, not with other guy but the younger. Only he can make his heart beats faster, only he can make him smile even cry. Only if the younger would understand it, understand his feeling about him; he would be the luckiest person.
His greatest craving would be the younger to be with him, rather than being alone in his room; crying continuously only the shining knife that has been accompanying him for several years keeps him calm, whenever he felt really lonely, a cut would be craves on such beautiful yet talented hands, hands which is use to play the guitar, the music that he used to love more than anything until he met the younger when they form a band together. None of them knows how Aoi suffer from the loss of blood every night due to his suffering of loneliness, although he wanted to tell them but he doesn’t want them to worry about him so much especially the younger. He doesn’t want him to felt guilty, because the reason why Aoi cut himself is because of wanting his love more than anything.
All started when they form a band and ever since the day the younger introduced himself as Uruha, from that moments Aoi has fall in love with that guy. A beautiful creature with soft face, a smile that looks like an angel, the beautiful solos that he made and the god gifted hands that made him play pretty well. If only he can have the younger to himself; that thought would never happen. Even if he prays, that would never happen. He wished he was Reita and Ruki, both were close to Uruha, even in the last live they were playing, Uruha and Ruki were so close, too close, even he let Ruki played his guitar by using his tongue licking those beautiful strings . That time Aoi wished he was Ruki, him playing the guitar solos with him, side to side as if only both of them rule the stage.
Whenever Aoi try to get closer to Uruha, he would end rather speechless or stutter even when he tried talking to the younger. Unlike Kai, it would be easier for him to befriend with him. Even with others it is easier for him to talk to them. Whenever he tried to forget about his feeling towards Uruha, he would end up crying, depressed, which makes the other concern about him the next day he came with a sad look, sleepless look, his eyes were tired, tired from all the crying. Once he even falls during practice, due to lack of sleep, tired from all the tears mix with the blood loss. Seeing Aoi in such state makes the other worried about him but he manage to stand up, he was too afraid that the others might found out about the scars that crave painfully at his hand.
He covered the scars by using a long sleeve shirt everytime they have practice, scars that make him surpass his loneliness, if only Uruha would notice and then love him, probably the scars won’t feel so dreadful. But at the same time, he wouldn’t want Uruha to notice them, because it will make him worried. So he hides them to himself, keeping it as secret probably would be the best way to make them unnoticed about his dark lives. Even they force him to use a short sleeve shirt, he denied them.
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They were having a break from all that practice, Aoi decided to have a smoke trying to release his tension because that day he played too much guitar solo. Aoi saw Uruha with a girl, he bare in mind that, by tomorrow the girl would be dump by Uruha, like the usual days when he dated a girl. He dumps them although He always smile and even pouts when he dated them, trying to act innocence which Aoi finds it rather attractive, but somehow he felt annoyed. He hates to see Uruha went out with other girls.
Aoi cannot stand seeing Uruha with the girl, he decided to go back home. He told Kai, that he felt unwell and he needs a rest. Kai allowed him cause he is concern about Aoi recently, coming to practice looking rather pale. “Aoi? Where do you want to go? It’s still early…” asked Reita when he saw Aoi was in rush. Aoi smiled and replied, “Home.” He packed his guitar to its place quickly; he steps out from the studio, he saw the girl is clutching near Uruha, leaning closer to him, but Uruha ignored her. Suddenly she pecks Uruha’s cheek. Aoi stunned, his eyes filled up with his tears, unconsciously his eyes automatically let out the tears to fall down to his cheek. He rushed to the car park where he put his car, doesn’t want Uruha to notice the tear stain. His engine start which surprised Uruha from the silence a while ago. It was rare to see Aoi went back so early when they still have few more hours to go for them to practice.
He was about to walk towards Aoi, wanted to ask him why he wanted to go back early. But he was stopped by the girl, holding his arm, wanting Uruha to respond, but Uruha ignored her. She become so persistence wanting Uruha to respond. End up Aoi drove away, driving faster as fast as he could, away from seeing Uruha. When Uruha saw Aoi drove away, he yelled at the girl for making him stay, he dumped her, the girl cried but Uruha left her. Went into the studio asking Kai what makes Aoi leaving home early. An instance replied from Kai, telling Aoi is sick.
He tried to call Aoi, but his attempt fail when the other line was engaged. Aoi has closed his phone. Uruha decided to pay him a visit the next day since tomorrow is a day off from practice.
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It’s bleeding, his hand start to let out the red stain, the pain, he tried to stop himself from cutting more but he can’t. For him when the razor-edge knife meet his flesh, it feels great, it makes the pain goes away, the pain when he saw Uruha with the girl made him eager to try to harm himself. He hated when he overreact but this is the only way that calm him down. He decided to end his life, but then before he dies, he wanted to hear the younger voice. He reached his phone, and called the younger, wanted to listen the younger voice for the last time.
“Moshi moshi?” said Uruha at the other of the line. His voice sounds rather tired maybe from the guitar solos that he played today. Aoi just kept on listening without saying a word to him, he wanted to say something but he cannot say it as if there was something stopping his mouth from letting out even a single word to Uruha. “Moshi moshi??” one more time Uruha said it, but again Aoi didn’t reply what he wanted to say. “Aoi is that you?” asked Uruha. When Uruha said his name, he cannot stop his sob, he made a small cry. “Goodbye Uru” Immediately he ends the call, before the younger could answer. He cried and another long cut craves at his hand. This time it felt really painful. He can see red stain slowly dropping, one drop by drop to the sheet. Should he smile looking at the blood stain? Or should he continue to crave another cut? Probably this would be the end of his life. Finally, He could forget the suffering.
His eyes almost failing because of the blood lost. Suddenly he heard a song, his phone rang, the songs that they all of them made together, he tried to reach them. Trying to get up, but he can’t his hand felt painful. He can feel the blood starting to become lesser as he find its hard for him to breath any longer. He let the phone rang; unanswered. His blood slowly covered the sheet where the cut comes out. He is bleeding painfully. After a short while, he heard his name was been called by a familiar voice coming from outside. That voice he knew so familiar. It was Uruha. He knocked the door, but Aoi doesn’t answer because it’s hard for him even to answer. Though at the same time he panicked, too afraid Uruha would saw the red stain, he wants to cover them, but he was too helpless, too helpless to even get up from the bed. He manage to hear Uruha saying “Aoi. Stay with me!” before he fell into a deep slumber.
Next thing he knew he was in the hospital, being put under medical care; located in the room where he was separated from other patients. He could felt his hand aching, he tried to ignore the pain. He looked at his right side; he saw the sun slowly rising. He turned to his left side… he saw someone sleeping next to him. Looking rather tired. The honey blonde hair that he knew perfectly who it belongs. He realized it was Uruha, still sleeping probably lacking of sleep. He tried to control his tears. He can hear Uruha mumble to himself, then he suddenly he got up. He saw Aoi eyes opened. His eyes widened when he saw is fact, Aoi finally woke up after the long sleep...
“Aoi!! Thank god finally you woke up. Oh god I’m so glad. That night when you call me I sense something wrong with you. I rushed to your apartment… and saw you covered up with blood stain.” said Uruha. “Aoi, you have been sleeping for 5 days straight, we were so worried sick about you. And when you call me that night you said goodbye” Uruha looked at Aoi injured hand, “Why Aoi? Why do you cut yourself? Are you trying to kill yourself?” he continued. Aoi didn’t reply him. He didn’t want anyone to know about his secret especially Uruha, he don’t want him to know that he suffered every night from the loss of blood. He didn’t realize that Uruha started to form tears in his eyes. “Tell me Aoi. Tell me everything. We don’t want to lose you.” said Uruha when his voice starts to crack. Aoi looked at him. Tears from his eyes slowly falling down to his cheek.
Aoi raised his hand to Uruha’s cheek, wiping his tears. “I’m so sorry Uru.” Said Aoi. Maybe he should tell Uruha about his feelings? He was confused to tell or not to tell Uruha about it. “I’m so sorry…” said Aoi this time he cannot control his tears, he cried. “I’m so sorry Uru, for making you wait for me, I’m sorry that you guys were worried about me” said Aoi, “stop apologizing Aoi, tell me why did you cut yourself??” said Uruha finally settling his voice, this time it was vice versa, Uruha wiped the tears from Aoi’s cheek.
Maybe Aoi should tell Uruha about his feeling, though the reason might be end up, Uruha don’t like him but its worth to try…
“Uru, I’m sorry but I did this because I love you. Since we first met, I’ve fallen for you. I wanted to tell you but my negative feelings keep on saying that it’s just a waste of time. Those negative feelings… made me like this, though it hurts, but it feels good at the same time. I’m sorry” said Aoi looking at the ceiling; he doesn’t want Uruha to thinks that he was a freak who have fallen for him. Indeed Uruha didn’t say anything but then… “Aoi look at me” said Uruha breaking the silent after Aoi’s confession to Uruha. Slowly Aoi move his sight and turn to Uruha.
Suddenly Uruha kissed him. Aoi stunned for a while but somehow he felt Uruha means it. Aoi’s tears slowly fall down. After a long deep meaningful kiss, they parted their lips. “Aoi. Why don’t you say this earlier?” asked Uruha, while his right hand was rubbing Aoi’s injure hand slowly, Aoi didn’t felt any pain, infact it makes the pain ease away so easily. “I’m too afraid Uru” Said Aoi still crying. “It’s okay now I’m here for you dear. I’m sorry, that I made you this way, I’m sorry. I love you too Aoi. I know I didn’t say them earlier. I wanted to tell you but I didn’t have the courage. I’m sorry.” said Uruha, tears flow down again to his cheek, Aoi knew that Uruha might felt guilty. Aoi told Uruha no need to apologized, as long as they both love each other that’s fine by him. “Promise me you wouldn’t do that again. Promise me you will tell me everything what you feel, even if you have a hard time I know we can solve it together. Promise me you will stay?” said Uruha; afraid Aoi might try to do it once again. “I promised” replied Aoi. They both kissed again, both were happy that’s their feelings towards each other are the same.
In the afternoon, Kai, Ruki and Reita pays Aoi a visit. Kai was so worried about Aoi cause for him Aoi is like a big brother to him. Kai was a bit mad but at the same time concern about the older man. Aoi smiled, telling Kai he wouldn’t do that again, cause he knew he already got what he wants for so long and he doesn’t have to suffer again. The next day Aoi was allowed to go back to home. Uruha drove him back to his house and accompany Aoi. When they reached to Aoi’s house. Uruha carried Aoi to his bedroom. Finally after the long years of suffering, Aoi dream the moments where he can finally touch Uruha came true.
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A/N: Please STOP reading if you are NOT a yaoi fangirl or if your mind are not matured enough read the continuation below. [PG 18+] I warned you.
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Uruha slowly put Aoi down to his bed and kiss Aoi’s cheek. He was about to go to the living room telling Aoi he will be staying for the night and sleep at the couch instead. But Aoi pulled Uruha. “Uru I want…” stopping his word from continuing them. “what is it dear? Tell me I’ll get them for you.” Uruha looks at the younger. “I want to feel you” whisper Aoi. Uruha smiled, obviously happy when Aoi want it so suddenly. “Well…Dear I hope you can bear it.” An evil smile craves from Uruha face when he said that. “cause I’m going to do you hard and good” said Uruha began to unzipped Aoi’s pant. Uruha placed a kiss to Aoi’s neck, sucking and licking them, Aoi made a small moans satisfied, he can felt an sudden erection under his boxer.
Aoi remove Uruha’s shirt unbuttoning them one by one while Uruha still licking his neck and then placed another kiss. “Are you ready Aoi?” asked Uruha, afraid that Aoi might felt tired. Aoi nodded. He wants Uruha to give him what he wanted for so long. Uruha began to unzip his pants and remove his boxers, while Aoi did the same thing. “Let me the Seme for today, I’ll do everything you just lay there and work with me” said Uruha.
He licks Aoi chest to his neck giving Aoi a shiver down to his spine. Then suddenly Uruha stopped. “Wait for me.” Said Uruha walking to the living room. He return back with a bottle of lube at his hand. “I brought it yesterday while you are asleep soundly in the hospital” said Uruha smiling innocently. “Ahh, already expecting something from me eyy?” said Aoi smiling in the devilish way.
Uruha covered his hand the lube and began to thrust his skilled hand to Aoi’s entrance, trying to make Aoi prepare himself before he thrust his hard arousal. He push his finger inside Aoi entrance, and enter his second finger, scissoring and pushing them deeply trying to find the sensitive spot. Aoi groan while Uruha enter him, the pain slowly turn to pleasure when suddenly Aoi eyes widened a small moans escape from him. His hands tugging the sheet, Uruha manage to hit his prostate. “Aoi let me enter okay?” asked Uruha, Aoi nodded. He began to thrust into Aoi. Aoi began to tugs the sheet when he felt Uruha’s cock enter him. Uruha tried to find his sensitive spot once again. Aoi moans when Uruha found them once again, his tears fall when the pain turns to pleasure. Hitting the prostate again and again; he start to thrust with greater speed. Increasing them every time he thrust into Aoi. “Oh FUCK Uru” “damn it I love you so”. suddenly Uruha felt the burning pressure beginning to build up in his stomach, hinting at an impending orgasm.
“Aoi I wants you to spread your cum at my stomach, damn that would be hot” said Uruha. “no I don’t want to” said Aoi; “just do it” said Uruha. “mine almost come already. Come on do it” demand Uruha. Uruha grabbed Aoi’s cock pumping them and keep on thrusting Aoi. When suddenly Aoi released them the hot liquid to his stomach probably it was unbearable for him to control them. He felt that Aoi’s entrance began to contract, Uruha shut his eyes and screamed Aoi's name as he felt the intense pleasure running throughout his body, finally releasing the hot liquid, shooting out his cum inside Aoi. He stopped what he done and fall on top of Aoi leaving both of them panting.
Uruha pulled his cock out of Aoi and apologized because he release them early. Aoi forgave him. They both look at each other and smiled. “Uru, dear… don’t ever leave me” said Aoi. “I won’t, I love you so much I won’t ever leave you” replied Uruha. Uruha buried his face at Aoi neck and start to kiss and sucking them. A red mark was form, which proves Aoi is his forever. Uruha lay on top of Aoi hugging his waist not letting them go, finally after settling his breath he kiss Aoi. Got up and head for a bath. “You want to follow me?”asked Uruha with a sexy tone. “sure thing” said Aoi as he got up from bed and head to the bathroom together with Uruha.
END
A/N: well sorry the sex scene was a bit short, I got no idea, bwahahahaha but I hope people would like it, ESPECIALLY Lydia who was expecting Aoi x Uruha, now I made one but this is different story. Yosh!! I added them up a bit hope people would like reading them.
Current status: listening to Guren. Exam tomorrow yet I’m writing this whole fiction once again.
Labels: oneshot
kito kawarazu aishiteru
3:36 AM
chapter 9
Monday, April 6, 2009
Title: Is that a word or confession? [part9]
Author: Fye
Pairings: Aoi and Uruha. [Mainly focused on this pairing]
Content: PG 16, Shonen Ai
Summary: it all started last spring…
Comment: I hope this story will turn out to be great. This chapter is unplanned. I just made it since I felt like it, sorry if it’s a bit dull. I hope everyone still like my fiction. Sorry for the grammar mistake.
While they were waiting for Miyavi to come, Kai made dinner for them since he was the best cook in the group. Uruha came in the kitchen and interrupt Kai concentration to cook. “Kai are you happy that I called Miyavi to come here?” asked Uruha with his teasing tone. “OUT!! Let me cook in peace!” blushed Kai when Uruha teased him. When he saw Uruha finally went out he spoke to himself, “Thanks Uru. For calling Miyavi, if not I would be so lonely.” “I HEARD THAT Kai and your welcome. HAHAHA” smiled Uruha and left Kai blushing when he thought Uruha was out to the hallway, but actually still standing near the kitchen. Uruha went to the living room where he saw Aoi sitting alone at the couch, looking rather down. Uruha came near him just to cheer him up a bit. “Aoi, you need another hug?”asked Uruha without feeling ashamed like he used to, cause for him Aoi really need someone that moments that’s why he think he should endure it even though it makes him embarrass sometime. “Uru, I’m fine by myself, all of you keep me accompany that’s fine by me already.” Replied Aoi then he gazed outside at the balcony where he can see Ruki and Reita talking to each other. “Well if you need me, I’m always here for you when you need me, Aoi. Oh yeah, want to sneak on what Ruki and Rei doing?” asked Uruha when he saw Aoi still watching the balcony. Aoi nodded “Hehs let’s do it!” replied Aoi looking happy. Uruha smiled when he heard Aoi cheerful tone.
Both of them tiptoed to the balcony and they heard conversation between Reita and Ruki. “Dear, how are you feeling today?” asked Reita glaring at Ruki as if he was hungry, craving for Ruki’s body. Ruki watched Reita’s eyes, he smiled cause he understands perfectly that Reita wants him; he replied “another round eyy? Yeah I’m fine”. When Uruha and Aoi heard what Reita and Ruki were talking about, they glare each other, almost laughing but they close their mouth just to keep on spying the two lovebug. Immediately Reita pull Ruki’s hand, bring him closer to him, reaching his lips closer almost kissing him when a sudden interrupt, Miyavi came and shouted “Kai!!!! I’m here honey. Where are you?” calling Kai’s name, he saw Uruha and Aoi standing behind the curtain. “Eyy Uru? Aoi? What are you doing?” saying it loudly snaps both Reita and Ruki from continuing their kiss. They saw Uruha and Aoi laughing behind them. They blushed. When Kai heard Miyavi came, he rushed to see him, hugging him, like they have parted for years.
“Miyavi!!! God I miss you so much” said Kai, he hug Miyavi long enough just to release until he fully satisfied. “And you’re just in time. I’ve finish cooking. EYY you guys come on and join too, Reita! Ruki! SEX later, eat first” teased Kai. Uruha and Aoi just keeps on laughing, finally they stopped but burst out laughing again when they saw Reita and Ruki blushed so much. After they finished their dinner, Kai made a schedule for their stay at Aoi’s late mum house, “So we stay here for 3 days, there’s also rule. Well I made our breakfast, lunch and dinner. Washing dish today its me and Miyavi, tomorrow Uru and Aoi, the next day would be Reita and Ruki, since here we have 3 rooms, so well you decide yourself. Tomorrow our mission is to cheer up Aoi and go to the shops and amusement park maybe?” said Kai. When Aoi heard what Kai said, a smile finally craves from his face. “So agree then?”asked Kai. Everyone nodded in agreement. They talked and talked over the night when finally the clock rang showing it’s midnight. “I’m going to bed now.” said Kai yawning looking rather tired. “can I sleep with you, Kai?” asked Miyavi. “ermm sure, just don’t do anything. I’m exhausted” said Kai. “Damns. I got to buy things for tomorrow dinner, guys do you mind following me to the market tomorrow?” asked Kai when he remembered that the food stock just ran out. “err sure, we got nothings to do right Aoi?” said Uruha looking rather active. Aoi nodded. “well how about you guys?” asked Kai looking at both Reita and Ruki. “Yeah I’ll go.” Said Ruki without hesitation. “yeah, sure but I’m going to head to other place though, I’ll meet you guys after that, is that okay?” said Reita, something came up to his mind that neither Ruki knew where he wants to go. “UHH whatever, as long as you’re not lost that’s fine by me.” Said Kai then left to one of the guess’s bedroom. Miyavi followed him behind.
Uruha went out to the balcony; sip up a few energy drinks that made him stays awake. By doing so he caught up Aoi attention, Aoi went out to the balcony. “Huh? Uru. Why do you drink those late night, it would be hard for you to sleep later.” Said Aoi, concerned when he saw Uruha drinking it too much. “well it’s okay Aoi, I can rest later at morning, you can have the room to yourself, I won’t interrupt your sleep” said Uruha while looking up to the moon that shone rather brightly that night. “Uru, you can sleep with me, it’s okay. It’s not like we haven’t done that before. Back then, when we were young, we used to sleepover together right???” said Aoi worried if Uruha might fall like he used to if he doesn’t catch enough sleep. “is it okay with you?” asked Uruha. Their conversation was interrupt by Reita who was yelling telling that he and Ruki will be sleeping at another room. Aoi just nodded saying goodnight to them. Then he answered back Uruha’s question, “yeah it’s okay. Come on lets go to sleep now. It’s late already.” Aoi smiled at Uruha, trying to make him to agree to sleep with him. Uruha nodded.
So both of them went to bed, “Well Uru, this bed is big enough for us two, we can share I guess.” Said Aoi and start to let go off his shirt and pants only using boxer left attach to him. “Ahh sure Aoi, you go and sleep first I want to use the bathroom for a while.” Said Uruha. “well there’s a bathroom in this room just go right at the corner” said Aoi and laid down his head, feeling rather tired. Uruha went to the bathroom, and washes his face cause he was thinking too much when he saw Aoi released his shirt. His heart thuds faster by just thinking about it, finally he settle them. He went in, and release his shirt and pants, unlike Aoi, Uruha prefer to use TEE-shirt and boxer to sleep. So after a while he dozed off to sleep.
While Uruha was having a nice sleep, he suddenly woke up when he heard Aoi’s yelling, calling his mum, then he cried. Uruha tried to wake Aoi up. Aoi was having a nightmare, when he finally woke up, immediately he hugged Uruha, crying uncontrollably. Uruha hugged Aoi, so tightly not releasing him till’ he calm down, and tried to stop Aoi’s crying, ensuring him that everything is okay, cause it is just a nightmare. “Aoi, it’s okay. Everything’s going to be okay. I’m here, stop crying, please.” Said Uruha fully woken after he heard Aoi’s crying.
END OF PART 9
Labels: that fiction of mine
kito kawarazu aishiteru
3:21 PM
chapter 8
Title: Is that a word or confession? [part8]
Author: Fye
Pairings: Aoi and Uruha. [Mainly focused on this pairing]
Content: PG 16, Shonen Ai
Summary: it all started last spring…
Comment: I hope this story will turn out to be great. This chapter is a bit of crap my ideas just stop in the middle of making this chapter though I’ve set the plot before. Forgive me for the bad quality and I’m really sorry for the grammar error.
“I can’t believe this is happening…” said Uruha tugging his knees again and this time Reita can hear his crying, tiny sobbing. Not long after that Ruki and Kai came. When Kai saw Uruha, he ran as fast as he can to him. “URU! What happened? Tell me!” said Kai worried about Uruha. Reita explained everything to Kai. “Tell us Uru. What happened to Aoi, explain to us.” said Kai slowing down his voice so that they didn’t catch any attention from other students who were passing by the hallway. Upon hearing Kai’s voice Uruha took his phone from Reita and called someone. “Please come and pick me up NOW at school” said Uruha. “Let’s go now, everyone lets go to Aoi’s mum hometown. I’ll explain everything later.” said Uruha, they all nodded in agreement. Ruki lend his hand to Uruha, helping Uruha to stand up.
Uruha told Reita and Ruki to go to the teacher’s staff telling they won’t be attending the next class, while Uruha and Kai wait at the front gate. Finally someone came, driving a black Limo. Uruha spoke to the driver, while Kai just stands at the side. When both Reita and Ruki came to the gate, they set off. While in the car, there was silent. Finally Uruha broke the silent, “I’m sorry guys, for dragging you like this.” Said Uruha feeling guilty for making them follow him. “It’s okay Uru, that’s what friends do.” Said Reita. Uruha smiled, but his smile was different, sad at the same time. “Uru… can you tell us, what happened to Aoi?” asked Kai. “Aoi’s mum, she just died, when Aoi reached there, his mom was in a coma state due to accident, not long after that...” His tears flow down to his cheek. He tried to control his sob; he continued “His mum was everything to him though he lives alone. I can’t believe this just happened in a short while. Aunty was a kind person, a caring mother who always protects Aoi, from...” Uruha stopped from continuing, he remembered that he must keep his promised about Aoi past live from the others. Ruki and Kai cried when they saw Uruha cried and the way he told about Aoi are just truly sad. Reita just sit silent, looking down without saying a word.
Along their way to Aoi’s mum hometown, nobody speaks. Nothing but silent. Finally they arrived at the church. Immediately Uruha rushed to see Aoi. Searching him, all he wanted to do is just to find Aoi and give him a hug that can comfort Aoi exactly the same as he does when Aoi cried when his parents got divorced. Finally Uruha saw Aoi; he was sitting in the corner next to his mom’s coffin. Crying continuously, Uruha ran to Aoi and hug him. “Uru…” said Aoi while sobbing. “Calm down now. I’m here. It’s okay.” Said Uruha trying to calm Aoi. Uruha keeps on hugging Aoi till’ he finally stop crying, only Uruha can made Aoi stop crying, only he can calm Aoi if something bad happened to him other than his mom, Uruha is the only one that can stopped his miseries. After a short while the priest came.
“Shiroyama-san??” asked the priest. Uruha released Aoi from his hug and Aoi nodded when the Priest called his name. “It’s time; you should prepare your speech now.” Said the priest then he leaves. “Are you okay now Aoi? Can you give the speech? ” asked Uruha. “thanks Uru, for coming, yeah I can do it.” Said Aoi taking out his handkerchief and wiped his face. not long after that, Kai, Reita and Ruki came. “I thought only Uru came” said Aoi half happy that he have such caring friends. “Aoi-chan we’re sorry to hear about your mom, I hope you can face it. Please if you need someone to talk, we can be your listener, a shoulder for you to cry on, you shouldn’t hide your miseries to yourself.” Said Ruki. Upon hearing Ruki said, Aoi cried again. “Aoi??? Doushite? Why are you crying.” Said Uruha he hug Aoi once more. “It’s okay Uru” replied Aoi. “this tears… I’m just happy. That I got friends that can be trusted and all of you were concerned about me. Thank you” said Aoi releasing Uruha’s arms and bowed to all of them.
“You’re our friend’s right? At least that’s what we can do, even it’s not much but…” said Reita almost crying but he trying as hard as he can to control his tears from falling. “Thank you everyone. I got to go now, the ceremony are about to start. Please take a sit.” Said Aoi. The ceremony start, Aoi gave such beautiful speech, telling how his mom used to be a very good mother and a kind hearted person. After the ceremony ends, after they buried her, all of them set off to his mom house, his relatives and his mom friends came too. After it was pretty late, all of them went home. Aoi thanks all of them for coming, thanking every single person that come to his mother funeral. Finally after all the guest went home, left only 5 of them in the house. They helped Aoi with the cleaning. Finally after the cleaning was finished, Uruha left to the balcony. Aoi followed him behind, “Aoi, I’m sorry about you mother, I hope you’re okay.” said Uruha while sipping a cup of coffee that is still hot. “It’s okay Uru, though I’m sad but you guys make me really happy.” replied while looking at Uruha.
“We made you happy eyy????” interrupt Kai coming out suddenly, Reita and Ruki followed him at the back. “We’ll be friends’ forever ne Aoi-Chan” said Ruki with a smile, trying to cheer Aoi. “Yeah we are. Forever and always” replied Aoi. “So umm… may I ask?” Reita interrupt. “Yeah?” said Uruha. “Aoi, why don’t we stay here for 3 days?” asked Reita. “sure.” replied Aoi. “Ahh I see… Reita… you want to buy something for your dear lover eyy??” teased Uruha. “SHUT UP Uru!” yelled Reita, blushing at the same time. “well since all of us are here, why not?” said Aoi. Kai didn’t say a word, “I’ll call MIYAVI. I don’t want to hear someone crying later at midnight, cause he haven’t seen him in one day.” Said Uruha when he realized Kai was looking down. “URU!” yelled Kai. Uruha ignored Kai and called Miyavi. “Miyavi can you come to Aoi’s mum place we were having sleepover here, I hope you can join in, or Kai WON’T stop crying, I’ll sent my driver to pick you up, just get ready okay??” before Miyavi could reply Uruha end the call and called his driver to pick Miyavi up. Seeing Uruha’s behavior makes Aoi laughed.
END OF PART 8
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kito kawarazu aishiteru
3:20 PM
chapter 7
Title: Is that a word or confession? [part7]
Author: Fye
Pairings: Aoi and Uruha. [Mainly focused on this pairing]
Content: PG 16, Shonen Ai
Summary: it all started last spring…
Comment: I hope this story will turn out to be great. This chapter is a bit of crap. I’m really sorry for the grammar error. Everything will be explained in the next chapter.
The sun finally rises up… Aoi woke uruha up. “Ne uru, I got to go to my mom’s hometown, someone’s call me this morning, I don’t know why, but… it sounds like urgent, somehow I really need to go there now. Can you walk yourself to school, without me?” asked Aoi with a worried face of his. Half awake Uruha replied “ ++ yawn++ naa Aoi?? Something happened? I can skip class and go with you if you want.” “Naa uru come on, don’t skip please, just go to class. I’ll call you later, I promise. Btw, here is a key for you, take care of my house will you?” said Aoi. “sure ne. call me if something happen.” said uruha. “sure, I will. Ahh btw breakfast is ready, I’m going now. Ja ne.” said Aoi in hurry. Aoi waved at uruha before he set off.
“Hmm something weird, ahh I need to get ready for school, damns.” Said uruha to himself. He went to bath then went downstairs to the kitchen where Aoi already made him a breakfast. He ate them, after finished he set off to school walking alone, like the usual days. “Huhs, it’s cold today.” Said uruha to himself. When he was about to enter the main school’s gate, someone pat him from behind. He turned and saw reita and ruki. “Uru you look so pale today… something happened?” asked ruki. “It’s nothing. Stop worrying about me.” Said uruha and walked to the main gate before reita could say a word. “ Rei. Something wrong with uru today. Should we asked him, or leave him alone?’ asked ruki. “Naa just leave him alone for a while, Ruki you’re in the same class as Aoi right? Try to ask Aoi maybe he knew something. During break later come and see me okay?” said reita. “Sure Rei-kun. Ja ne” waved Ruki.
So both of them part their ways to their class. While Reita whose class is the same as Uruha, watched Uruha till’ class finished, at first Uruha gazed at the window, then after a while he checked up his phone, then gazed back to the window, without paying attention to the teacher teaching. After class ended, Reita approached Uruha who are still gazing at the window. He taps gently on uruha’s shoulder, giving him a start. “Ne reita? What’s wrong??” asked Uruha surprised to see reita standing beside him. “Huhs, it’s not you who should ask that, it should be me. What happened, you look so weird today. Tell me.” Said reita while looking at Uruha sternly. Uruha went silent; he didn’t say a word or two. Reita took the chair nearby and sat near Uruha. “It’s okay we’ve been friends like for a long time right? You can tell me” said reita slowing down his voice. When Uruha about to reply him, Ruki came in, searching for reita. “Naa rei found you at last! Aoi didn’t come to class today.” Said ruki while approaching both of them. Uruha looked down and silent once again.
“Something happened to Aoi, Uru??” asked ruki. “Naa... that’s why, I’m telling you. I’m just worried about Aoi, just now he woke me up and tells me that he is going to his mum hometown. He promised to call but I haven’t receive any up till now.” Said uruha. “Uru, maybe Aoi busy now, he’ll call you. He promised you that right” said reita trying to cheer up uruha a bit. “Yeah when Aoi promised something, he never broke it, isn’t that right uru?” continued Ruki. “Yeah. Thanks you guys, you cheer me up a bit” said uruha finally a smile crave on his face. “That’s the smile I want to see. Anyway if Aoi still not here after school, why don’t the three of us walks to Kai’s house together, ruki, honey, are you okay with it? ” suggest Reita. “Yeap that’s fine by me.” Said ruki agreeing reita suggestion. “Ahh don’t worry about me, I don’t want to interrupt. I can go with Kai later, I’ll ask him. Hehs don’t want to disturb, I can feel some vibes, like hot sensations when both of you came near me. Makes me shiver. HAHAHAHA” laughed Uruha. Both reita and ruki follow suit, seeing Uruha laughed is more than enough.
Suddenly Uruha’s phone rang. He saw Aoi’s name written on them. “It’s Aoi. I think I should answer them.” Said uruha. Both Reita and Ruki nodded in agreement. Uruha went out of the class leaving both Reita and Ruki alone. He answered the phone call. “Hello. Aoi? How are you? Are you okay?” asked Uruha. At the end of the line Uruha could hear a tiny sob. He suspects something happened. “Aoi?? Daijoubu? Answer me, are you okay?” asked Uruha with a worried voice of his. “Uru… my mom…” said Aoi and this time he cannot controlled his sob, he starts to cry. Crying so much like he used to when his parents got divorced.
“Aoi answer me! Something bad must happen! You haven’t cried like this, since your parents got divorced. Answer me Aoi!!! ” uruha insist and sounding more worried than ever. Uruha voiced was loud enough to snap Reita and Ruki. Both of them rushed to see Uruha. Both ran as fast as they can to find Uruha whereabouts. Finally they saw him, sitting, holding his legs tightly, knees closer to his chest, with his right hand still holding his mobile phone. Ruki took Uruha’s phone and saw that Aoi is still on the line. He brought Uruha’s phone up to his ear, when he heard Aoi crying continuously. “Aoi??? Daijoubu? Something happened??” asked Ruki worrying when he heard Aoi’s cried. “AOI??? AOI?? ANSWER ME!” demand Ruki at the same time worried about both Uruha and Aoi. But Aoi didn’t reply, he continued on crying. “Ruki comforts Uruha NOW! Give me the phone” said Reita sounding harsh, both of them worried sick seeing Uruha hugging his leg tightly and hearing Aoi crying.
Ruki gave Reita the phone and comforts Uruha. Reita took the phone, and talked to Aoi trying to cheer him up. “Aoi please stop crying. Tell me. What happened?” asked Reita calmly. “Asked… uru… He will… tell you everything, okay??” still crying that’s the only word that came out of Aoi before he hung up. Reita finally settle down and tried to make Uruha to talk, after a short while Uruha finally started talking. His eyes were red, after all that crying, still sobbing he replied. “Please… Tell Kai, no practice for today; let’s go to Aoi’s mum place now.” “Ruki go and get Kai, and tell him to come here immediately” said reita. “sure” that’s the only word that ruki can reply. Ruki ran to meet Kai, leaving reita to talk with Uruha.
End of part 7
Labels: that fiction of mine
kito kawarazu aishiteru
3:19 PM
chapter 6
Title: Is that a word or confession? [part6]
Author: Fye
Ex Editor: Nabb [she ran away from me!]
Pairings: Aoi and Uruha. [Mainly focused on this pairing]
Content: PG 16, Shonen ai
Summary: it all started last spring…
Comment: I hope this story will turn out to be great. Sorry cause this chapter is a bit crap due to my idea is inactive for a while. 2nd, my editor just ran away from me cause I didn’t pay her salary which cost $1 HAHAHA! I’m kidding. 3rd I got no times due to lots of school works to be done. Sorry for the bad quality and lots of grammar error.
So after the long walked, finally they reached the restaurant that uruha just mention. The restaurant’s name is “TAKASHIMA”. “Naa uru, don’t you think this restaurant is expensive??” asked aoi. “Hmm? Nope. Not really that expensive ‘cause I’m a regular customer here, so they give me discount everytime I eat here” said uruha. “Ne??? Don’t you cook? I thought your mum is there and cook for you.” Said aoi. “Hahaha. If I go to the kitchen, know what? I burn the place down. Plus now my mother has moved out to other place so it’s just me at my apartment. Anyway shall we enter now? I’m starving to death already” said uruha glaring aoi with hungry face of his. “I know you’re hungry but be patient there, don’t eat me hahaha I’m not that delicious, hehe okay come on lets go.” Aoi replied. So both of them went in.
On the other hand, while uruha and aoi still talking, “naa ruki-chan… what do you think are they talking?” asked reita. “I don’t know ne, want to get closer to them?” asked ruki. “Hahaha you read my mind there baby. That’s what I love about you, hahaha” said reita. “Ahh love eyy, naa you know rei. You look beautiful when those moonlight shine at you.” Said ruki. “ahh ruki dear, just wait till’ we finish our mission today then later it’s you and me baby.” Said reita.
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While in the restaurant, both of them were greeted by the waiter. “Young master takashima, your reservation is ready” said waiter. “Ahh thank you. If you don’t mind I walk myself there.” Said uruha. “Yes, young master. The seat you order table 10 as usual.” Said the waiter. “Wakarimashta. Come on aoi let’s go.” said uruha. “Sure” replied aoi after a long silent.
After both of them have reached the table, it was located outside at the balcony. Where both of them can watch the moon, there’s also sakura tree a few meters away from them, the waiter that serve them lit up the candle on. “Young master what do you wish to eat today?” asked the waiter. “As usual please” said uruha. After the waiter left both of them. Aoi broke the silent. “Ahh uru whose takashima and, young master?” asked aoi. “Gomene aoi I have been keeping this secret from you right?, well I’m actually the successor of the takashima’s company, and this place is mine, my restaurant, that grandfather gave me years ago, I wanted to tell you but… nevermind just keep this secret between us okay?” said uruha. “Sure, ahh next time, please tell me everything okay? No need to hide from me.” said aoi after hearing uruha explanation. Uruha nodded. “You know uru I love this spring scenery somehow, you can see the sakura falls. Let me guess, you always sit here don’t you?” asked aoi. “Yeah I always do, whenever I felt lonely I came here.” Said uruha. “uru. Huh you know. You can always find me anytime you felt really lonely. That’s what friends do right, accompany when your precious friends need help?” said aoi feeling frustrated after hearing uruha have to suffer lonely night. “okay then since you say that, sometime I felt really happy when I can count on you when I really need someone,.. thank you aoi.” Said uruha. Finally the waiter came and set the plate down, “Dinner is serve young master, the appetizer would be finish soon,” said the waiter. “okay thank you.” Said uruha. “lets eat now, shall we aoi? I’m starving already.” Said uruha. “Yeah sure, MY LORD.” Said aoi with his teasing voice.
Both of them laugh. So as they ate their dinner, they talked about their past, such mischief both of them when they are young. After finished eating they went outside. Both were stunned when they saw reita and ruki outside the restaurant.
“Reita? ruki? what are you doing outside here?” asked uruha. “Well, its payback time, both of us really suspicious about you two, so we followed-”before reita could finish his sentence uruha interrupt. “PERVERT!!! We are just eating dinner, nothing much, plus I promised aoi, huh both of you really suits together, cause same hobby, a STALKER” said uruha. “AHAHAHAHAHA, come on uru, you and aoi also did that, and you saw me and ruki trying to make out yesterday right?” said reita. “HAHAHAHA I forgot about that thanks for reminding me.” Uruha start to burst out laughing, so does aoi. Both reita and ruki blushed. “ahh come on, rei. Lets go home, I’m tired already. I’ll cook you dinner.” Said ruki. “Well have fun both of you, have a GREAT night.” teased aoi. Uruha start to laugh again when aoi teased both ruki and reita. After ruki and reita left, uruha and aoi start to aoi’s house. Uruha insist sending aoi to his home. Aoi agreed.
When both of them still walking to aoi’s house, uruha told aoi the secret that reita told him that morning. “Know what, aoi, both reita and ruki already– ehem you know….” Said uruha. “FOR REAL URU????” asked aoi, shocked when uruha told him about reita and ruki. “Yeah they did, and I think both of them going to do it again today, hehe, I wonder where did they have such energy doing that every night, hahahahahahahahaha.” Laughed uruha. aoi just chuckled when uruha laughed till’ he has to catch a long breath after a long laugh. “ Naa uru we reach my house already. Want to go inside and drink few cups of coffee its freezing outside” aoi offering uruha. “sure. Thanks aoi.” Said uruha.
So both of them enter aoi’s house and chat over the night. When they realized, it is morning already, around 2. So aoi told uruha to stay at his house since he got lots of room but only him live that house. “is it okay with you aoi?” asked uruha. “sure, I feel bored when I’m alone here to, ne I got an idea!” said aoi. “hmm what is that?” asked uruha. “come on first.” Said aoi. Aoi hold uruha’s hand and brought him upstairs to a neat bedroom. “This room is empty; you can sleep there for the night.” Said aoi. “naa just now you said something right?” asked uruha. “Tomorrow I’ll tell you, right now off to sleep already, it’s late and we have class later early in the morning.” said aoi. Uruha agreed.
END OF PART 6
Labels: that fiction of mine
kito kawarazu aishiteru
3:18 PM
chapter 5
Title: Is that a word or confession? [part5]
Author: Fye
Editor: Nabb
Pairings: Aoi and Uruha. [Mainly focused on this pairing]
Content: PG 16, Shonen ai
Summary: it all started last spring…
Comment: I hope this story will turn out to be great. Credits to nabb for editing my vocabulary
After running away from kai’s house, still grabbing aoi’s hand, uruha and aoi ran off till’ they reached their limit. “Ne uru… can... we... stop..?? I’m exhausted.” said aoi while gasping for air. Upon hearing aoi panting uru stopped. “And, will you… stop holding …my hand already” said aoi. After realizing that uruha was still holding aoi’s hand, he finally released them. “Gomene, aoi, I just want to take you away from them, or you will… you know…” said uruha. After settling his breath aoi finally spoke, he looked at uruha’s face. “Wakarimashta. I know. Wow. Well, uru, at least please run a bit slower, surely they can’t catch up since you are our school’s best athlete, now I am extremely exhausted from all that running.” said aoi. “Hahaha, you’re right. I’m sorry. I just – well you know” said uruha. “Okay I’m so sorry aoi, can you walk? Or you want me to carry you on my back?” asked uruha. “Damn you. Are you crazy? I can walk by myself you know.” replied aoi. “I’m just kidding, well maybe you have forgotten I used to do that when we were kids, but now, look at you, all grown up, don’t care about me anymore.” said uruha and started to pretend crying.
“Stop your nonsense uru. Huh. Ne can you feel it. The wind is blowing nicely today isn’t it?” asked aoi. “Yeah it is, it feels great!” “Okay come on let me send you home, okay?” asked uruha. “Yeah sure, ne uru I want to ask you something, why do you always protect ever since we were kids.” Asked aoi. “Is me being protective bothering you?” asked uruha. “no. I’m okay with it. It doesn’t bother me at all.” Replied aoi. “in fact, I’m really happy with it.” said aoi softly. “What is that aoi?” asked uruha. “It’s nothing uru, okay let’s go home now.” said aoi.
So they both walked together to aoi’s house. When they reached aoi’s house, “oyasuminasai aoi, have a sweet dream.” said uruha. Unconsciously, uruha kissed aoi’s cheek. When he realized what he had done, uruha apologized. “Gomene aoi-kun. I’m so sorry I didn’t realized what have I done, It’s like my body were moving on their own.” said uruha. “it’s okay. goodnight” said aoi. Aoi walked to his door and unlocked his house and went in. after he closed his door he dropped down (on his butt) and blushed. In the other hand, after regretting what he had done, he felt really guilty.
The next day at school…
Whenever aoi and uruha clashed with each other, they blush. Because of that reita and ruki suspected something was happening with both of them. So reita and ruki secretly tried to find out the reason. During lunchtime, after class, reita and uruha went down to the cafeteria to eat.
“ne uru, you know something weird about you and aoi-kun, is something happening with both of you that I don’t know??” asked reita. “nope. Nothing’s happening. why are you asking me this?” asked uruha. “nandemonai. Btw you know, last night was a great night!” said reita. “oh no, you didn’t…” said uruha. “yeah we did, hahahaha” said reita. “wow for real rei-kun. I can’t believe you did that, well whose invitation was that.” said uruha. “it’s me baby. Hahaha I know but I just… you know, I love him so, I want to make him as mine forever. Hehehe guess what ruki agree and yeahhhh crazy night there” said reita. “reita. I salute you, hahaha look at you, all grown up. You took his last drop of innocence away, you naughty brat” kid uruha. They both laughed together. Then someone called reita from behind, it was ruki. He is with aoi.
“Nice talk both of you have there” said ruki. “hmm. Yeah. Really nice.” said uruha while teasing reita with his teasing tone. “shut up uru. Ne ruki let’s go, better leave them alone, I want to ask you something.” Said reita and they left. “na…I’m sorry for last night , aoi. I made a mistake again and again right, I’m sorry for doing so.” said uruha lowering his voice. “it’s okay uru. It’s just a friendly kiss, right, just get over with it. Let’s just forget what had happened.” Said aoi. “hehs thanks aoi. Anyway let’s catch dinner together later, I’m treating.” asked uruha. “hehs again?? Ahh sure that is after we practice, okay?” replied aoi. “okay sure, btw wait for me at the school gate after school we walk together okay?” said uruha. “yeah sure” replied aoi.
So after school they both walked together, reita and ruki saw both of them so they followed them behind, guessing maybe they want to go elsewhere, not practicing. But they were wrong. Both uruha and aoi went to kai’s house. After practiced, uruha called aoi. “yeah uru, what’s wrong?” asked aoi. “Have you forgotten, we are going to have dinner together right?” said uruha. “Oh yeah sorry, I forgot.” Replied aoi. “it’s okay, okay I’m going to tell kai that we are going early today. Wait for me, and pack your things.” Said uruha. Aoi nodded, doing what he was instructed. “Ne kai-kun me and aoi going to set off early, is that okay kai-kun?” asked uruha. “ahh sure go on, just don’t be late tomorrow okay?” said kai. Uruha nodded.
So they set off to the restaurant. Reita saw uruha and aoi set off early. “Ne where are they going?” thought reita to himself. Reita ran to kai. “Ne kai-kun where have uru and aoi-kun gone to?” asked reita. “I don’t know. Uru just said they want to leave early. Just that.” replied kai. “Ohh I see well can I and ruki go to, I just remember we have something to do.” asked reita. “Ahh sure, just don’t be late tomorrow.” replied kai.
Reita met ruki, “Ne dear, let’s go, we are going to spy uru and aoi, its payback time baby! Want to check what they are up to.” said reita. “huh, sure. But I got a favor for you.” Said ruki. “what is that my dear?” asked reita. “hehs later, at night come to my apartment. okay?” asked ruki. “Sure baby. You want- ehem. Okay let’s go” said reita. they ran out and found uruha and aoi talking to each other. Reita and ruki followed the behind. “hehs it feels good being a stalker!” said reita.
END OF PART 5
Labels: that fiction of mine
kito kawarazu aishiteru
3:17 PM
chapter 4
Title: Is that a word or confession? [part4]
Author: Fye
Editor: Nabb
Pairings: Aoi and Uruha. [Mainly focused on this pairing]
Content: PG 16, Shonen ai
Summary: it all started last spring…
Comment: I hope this story will turn out to be great. Credits to nabb for editing my vocabulary
The sun shone brightly that morning, the calm breeze that hit their face felt really good. Just as uruha and aoi about to reach kai’s house, they met ruki and reita. They were talking, uruha and aoi stared each other looking curious.
So they rushed and met them, asking what had happened, ruki smiled. “Nothing” reita replied. “Nothing eyyy, but it seems you are hiding something…”said uruha. “Something happened… come on, spill it.” Aoi insist. “Hehs I will tell you guys later, maybe. Okay let’s get going, kai would be mad if we are late.” Reita replied, ignoring aoi’s question. So they all walked together to kai’s house.
When they opened kai’s door, “Oh gee, look at the time, you guys! You are freaking late! 15 minutes late! Where have you been????! You know our time is precious!!!” kai yelled angrily at them. “Wow bad mood eyy kai-kun. Hahaha calm down, just now I went to aoi’s house and guess what? He was still sleeping and not yet bath hahaha and along the way we met reita and ruki. Curious and anxious, they were doing something unexpected. Hahahaha okay I’m kidding. I don’t know what they were up to-” said uruha. “Close your mouth there, you noisy brat!” yelled reita. “Ne?? uru is a noisy brat hahaha. Gomene kai–kun, last night I forgot to set my alarm, that’s why I woke up late, thank god uru came and woke me up and again along the way we met reita and ruki, just that. Gomene, we are late.” Aoi replied.
After listening to aoi’s detailed explanation, finally kai calmed down a bit. “Huh. You are forgiven, this time only but if you guys do that again I’m sure you will be dead meat. Anyway uru, just now what do you mean by reita and ruki?” asked kai. “They are doing something suspicious and I WANT THEM TO TELL US THE TRUTH WHAT THE HECK WERE THEY DOING JUST NOW.” demand uruha. “OII uru! Damn you! Shut up, will you?” reita tried to ignore the question. “Now now. Calm down already or you will bring this house down.” finally ruki said something after a long pause.
“Oh yeah which reminds me, kai I want you to listen to this, just now when I went to aoi’s house I-” uruha said. “did you?” asked reita. “Oii are you crazy I wouldn’t, anyway… aoi come hear and play that song” said uruha. “HUH? Me? You mean the song just now? Ahh… sure.. Okay...” said aoi.
*aoi played the acoustic version of cassis.
“wah! Sugoi na! great! Ne ruki can you think of a lyric that rhyme with that song” asked kai. “You bet. Thanks for the inspiration aoi.” replied ruki. So ruki went to the other room to think of a song, reita followed him. uruha approached aoi. “aoi, you know there is something really really suspicious about both of them, don’t you think so?” asked uruha. “yeap I think so. Hey, I have a crazy idea” said aoi. “what’s that?” asked uruha. “want to spy them? And see what they are up to??” aoi suggested. “That’s insane! But.. What the heck, come on let’s go.” uruha replied.
So both of them moved to the other room where reita and ruki were in. they were shocked after witnessing what they saw. They rushed to kai. Wanting kai to see what they had seen. Reita and ruki, they were not thinking the lyrics, instead they were trying to make out. “Oii! This is not the place for lovey dovey. Spill it now!” demand kai. “Okay okay.” Reita replied. “Well, since ruki transferred to our school.. Well… you see I have a crush on him, so just now I have the courage to finally told ruki about my feeling to him. But to my surprise ruki also like me so we end up being a couple just now” confess reita.
“Why don’t you just tell us, sheesh, why keep secret, we could share, you know.” said kai. Aoi just smiled, when uruha saw aoi smiled, He laughed, because of reita and ruki and also he was so happy when aoi finally smiled sincerely. “HAHAHAHAHA I thought you guys are straight, but end up being yaoi!!! Lovely. Hehehehe” uruha just burst out laughing. “Shut up uru” reita blushed. So does ruki. “Okay okay let’s stop talking about this and ruki, now think of a lyric, you reita, don’t disturb ruki. Aoi, uru, come with me, I want you guys to search for another code for this lovely song.” Kai demand. “oh yeah which remind me who can play keyboard here?” asked kai. “well I can” aoi said. “yeah me too” said uruha. “Well anyway let’s stop talking crap and do our work now.” said kai.
Seeing reita and ruki were well together, maybe it’s okay for uruha to confess to aoi about his feeling. He thought to himself. Suddenly miyavi came in. “eyy Miyavi? What are you doing here?” asked aoi. “Hee well I heard about you guys forming a band so I go and check up and-” before miyavi continue his sentence, kai came. “oh Miyavi!!! I miss you.” said kai while hugging miyavi. Aoi and uruha were stunned so were ruki and reita. “aren’t you straight?” asked reita. “lol. I’m not. I’ve been with Miyavi since last year. don’t you know?” kai replied. All of them shook their head. “Hahahaha well not only reita and ruki are yaoi, me also, lol miyavi is my boyfriend you see.” Replied kai, miyavi smiled when he listened to kai explanation.
“Okay. me and rei-kun are yaoi, you and miyavi also, and now left aoi and uruha, hmm they really are straight aren’t they?” asked ruki. “What the heck, stop talking crap and aoi let’s go home and ignore them I wouldn’t want to get caught up dead with this hentai!!” said uruha. “Hey, where are you taking our aoi? We want to change him.” said reita and he acted like an alien about to abduct aoi. Uruha grabbed aoi’s hand and together they ran away from them.
End of part 4
Labels: that fiction of mine
kito kawarazu aishiteru
3:16 PM
chapter 3
Title: Is that a word or confession? [part3]
Author: Fye
Editor: Nabb
Pairings: Aoi and Uruha. [Mainly focused on this pairing]
Content: PG 16, Shonen ai
Summary: it all started last spring…
Comment: I hope this story will turn out to be great. Credits to nabb for editing my vocabulary
Along the journey, both were completely silent. Uruha didn’t make a sound. He was thinking what could happen to aoi. He thought about cheering aoi up. Then he remembered something, something that they usually do to cheer up when they were still kids. “Ne aoi… since it’s still a bit early why don’t we go for Ramen. It’s your favorite right? My treat. How about that?” asked uruha. “Well…” aoi went silent. “Aoi… onegai. Just this once, I’m treating, so don’t worry I will pay them for you” uruha insisted. “Uhh…Okay, just this once” aoi replied.
They reached the ramen shop where they used to eat when they were young. “Konbawa! Good evening aoi-kun, uruha-kun.” The owner greets both of them. “Konbawa! Oyaji!” replied uruha. The owner saw aoi like he was having a huge problem. While uruha was busy ordering ramen at the counter, the owner approached aoi.
“Ne aoi-kun? Something wrong? You seems different from the usual you. You can tell me, I can keep my mouth shut, even with uruha-kun I won’t tell him.” said the owner. “It’s nothing oyaji, just that.. I feel weird” aoi replied. “Weird? What do you mean by weird?” asked the owner. “Everytime I see that person, I’m happy, really happy, and excited, well oyaji… yesterday I saw that person with other guy, I was sort of mad at him for no reason. Then I sulked, and that made my day gloomy.” Said aoi. “Ahh… aoi-kun that means you fall in love, now it’s okay that you feel mad for no reason, you are jealous, hahaha what I’m trying to say is, you want that person to be yours right? Well it’s okay for you to feel a bit jealous. Why don’t you try to talk to that person.” Advised the owner. “Maybe I should. Thanks oyaji.” Replied aoi. “Ahh now who’s the lucky person that made you fall in love, may I know?” asked the owner. Aoi blushed.
When aoi was about to tell the owner who’s the person that they were talking about, uruha came. “Wow oyaji, aoi, you sure talk a lot, what are you talking about ne?” asked uruha. Aoi went silent. Then the owner replied uruha, “this, aoi was so gloomy today because of…” when the owner was about to continue his word, aoi interrupt, giving a signal to the owner, not to talk to uruha about it. “Well it’s nothing, now I forgot already the reason, haha silly me, you will start to forget things easily when you’re getting older.”
Aoi was glad that he didn’t say about what they talked just now. Uruha felt that maybe he made a mistake or said harsh words that makes aoi won’t talk like he usually do. He thought that maybe aoi hates him. He thought to himself, maybe it is better if he kept his feeling, rather than telling him.
“Ne aoi… gomene. Forgive me if I said something harsh to you… or if I made something that makes you hate me, I’m sorry. Just please don’t hate me, I’m okay if you don’t want to see me again, just don’t hate me, and please be yourself again, onegai.” Said uruha. When aoi heard what uruha just said, he stopped eating his ramen, “ne… uru its okay just don’t ever leave me. that’s fine by me. I’m sorry to because I’m different from the usual me and made you guys worried about me. Gomen.” Replied aoi. “I won’t leave you... I’m just glad you are okay now, anyway let’s head home after we finish eating. Tomorrow we have to practice right? Kai would be mad if we are late.” Uruha replied.
So the next day… it was Sunday, no school, public holiday.
Uruha decided to go to aoi’s house, before they go to practice. A few minutes later he reached at aoi’s house. Aoi live by himself since his parents divorced. Uruha rang the bell when aoi open. Half naked. Only boxer attached to him. Aoi told uruha to come in; he told uruha to wait in the living room, and then he went to shower. “Aoi have a nice body there” thought uruha by himself.
After finish bathing, aoi made some tea for uruha to drink. “Ne uru…what made you come here?” asked aoi. “You… hahaha I’m just kidding, I just wanted to visit your house, it’s been a while right? Well I’m pretty amazed, for a teenage like you keep this house sparkling clean.” Praised uruha. “Uru… anyway we are going to practice today right?” asked aoi. “Yeah that’s why I came here and maybe we can walk together later. I wonder if ruki and kai came out with an idea what song will we play” “Yeah I can’t wait to play guitar solo’s.” replied aoi. “Oh yeah which remind me…” suddenly remembering something.
Aoi run to his room upstairs and rushed down with guitar on his hand and a few papers. “Uru… I want you to hear this… I was playing around with guitar and came out with this sound. Comment me, if it’s nice or not.” Said aoi. “Wow super genius aoi chan, you make a few note just a few hours” praised uruha. “Wait. Listen first.” aoi demand. As aoi played a nice song with his acoustic guitar, Uruha was amazed by the notes.
*Note to all reader: Aoi was playing the acoustic version of cassis. Though cassis,.. not their first song, but I just love it. Hehs
“Aoi chan!!!! Sugoi na! wait till’ kai hear this maybe they will think of a song. Okay let’s go to kai’s house now. Okay?” “ermm sure. Let’s go.” replied aoi. After finished packing things, they set off to kai’s house. …
End of part 3
Labels: that fiction of mine
kito kawarazu aishiteru
3:15 PM
chapter 2
Title: Is that a word or confession? [part2]
Author: Fye
Editor: Nabb
Pairings: Aoi and Uruha. [Mainly focused on this pairing]
Content: PG 16, Shonen ai
Summary: it all started last spring…
Comment: I hope this story will turn out to be great. Credits to nabb for editing my vocabulary
So as their lesson ended, aoi went downstairs to the school canteen and searched for uruha and kai. He saw uruha with someone whose face was so familiar to him. As he got closer, he realized it was reita. Talking to uruha, but they were too close that made aoi a bit jealous of both of them. They looked perfect together. Then kai came, kai introduced someone to them. He was the new transferred student, named ruki. Kai told that ruki have a nice voice that really can bring the house down. Kai told them his home address and told them to go there after school ended.
So as aoi finished the last lesson for the day, aoi reached his bag and started to go to the address that kai has written down, aoi slowly walked when he met uruha down on the hallway. “Aoi! Let’s go together, to kai’s house” asked uruha. Hoping that aoi would agree. “Ermm… why don’t you just go with reita?” replied aoi. “Reita? He is still in the class. I’m waiting for him though, but I was just thinking about going together with you and reita. How about that?” asked uruha. “Well it’s okay, I can go by myself, ja ne uru, see you later” aoi replied. “Aoi?” as uruha watch aoi start walking away from him.
“That’s weird.” Uruha thought to himself. Suddenly reita came and interrupt, “what’s weird?”. “nothing, lets go” uruha replied. As they walked, uruha was thinking what could happen to aoi. Suddenly he turned cold; his expression was different from the person he used to know. As they reached kai’s house, aoi was already there, but he stayed at the corner. Trying to tune his guitar.
“Aoi is something bothering you?” asked uruha. “it’s nothing uru. How many times I should tell you that you don’t need to worry about me, Uru.” aoi replied. Uruha moved and sat on the couch and started to tune his guitar at the same time he was thinking about aoi, when suddenly his string broke. The string hit uruha’s beautiful face, when he realized the broken string hit his face. “ uru? What happen, how come your string broke, are you over tuning it? ” Asked kai. “ it’s nothing” replied uru. He asked kai where his toilet was and started to walk to the direction kai showed him. Everyone was worried about uruha. When aoi saw he was going to the toilet, he followed him behind.
“Ne? Uru, didn’t you realize that you tightened your string too much?” asked aoi. Aoi took the tissue nearby and wet them up with water and started to wipe it on uruha’s face slowly. Uruha went silent without a word coming out of his mouth. “ Uru, are you… mad at me?” asked aoi. “Nope.” Uruha replied. “Then why, is something bothering you?” asked aoi. “ It’s nothing aoi. No need to worry about me. Just take care of yourself” uruha replied. “I think I should go out now, you can rest if you don’t want to practice today, and please take care.” said aoi.
So as aoi walk off. Uruha thought to himself “I’ve hurt his feelings, haven’t I? I gave him a short answer, maybe he doesn’t want to talk to me anymore. I’m sorry aoi dear, I want to say that I love you and every time, every minute, every second I am thinking about you endlessly. But… I just don’t have the courage to tell you that, I’m sorry please forgive me.” Uruha hoped that he can tell aoi what he just thought just now and he went out the toilet and went the music room where practice will be held. Luckily his hand is fine so he tell kai that he will play for them.
Ruki asked uruha whether he got some spare guitar string, to replace the broken string. Well uruha is the type who always prepared thing if something bad would happen so he started to take out his string and replace them. “Can you change them uru?” asked reita, “yes I can, just wait for a while” replied uruha. Aoi watched as uruha replaced the string. At first kai asked reita to play bass whether he can play it perfectly or not. He played well so the position for the bassist was still be his. next, he told ruki to sing. He was impressed with his voice and the position as the vocalist was fixed. Then kai asked aoi to play the guitar, aoi played well and he decided to let aoi be the lead guitarist. As aoi played the guitar, uruha watched him and impressed by how he played well, next turn would be his, and he hoped he played well like aoi does.
When it was uruha’s turn to play, it was well played, rhythmic and nice. Aoi just couldn’t let his eyes off uruha for even a second, he played well then he thought, though they grew up together uruha never played in front of aoi even once in his life. So the position was fixed. Ruki as the vocalist, aoi and uruha as the lead guitarist, reita as the bassist and kai as the drummer. “so what do we called our self?” asked reita. “well as a matter of fact I’ve been thinking about them. How about gazette?” asked kai. “That’s fine by me.” replied ruki. “gazette eyyy???” reita said. “hmm nice” aoi replied. “sure. if everyone agrees I’m okay with it.” Replied uruha. “So gazette it is.” kai replied. Everyone was happy with the name, and as the sun set down, the others went back home.
“Aoi, let me send you home” said uruha. “ Ermm… it’s okay, I can walk myself home.” Aoi replied. “aoi… please if you don’t want to, can I just follow you from behind, it’s getting dark and what if the stranger that attacked you yesterday come again?” uruha was concerned about aoi safeties but aoi just went silent, then he replied. “Well okay but just one thing, be quiet along the way don’t talk to me cause I’m not in the mood right now” aoi replied. Uruha smiled when aoi agreed to go back with him. so they set off.
END OF PART 2
Labels: that fiction of mine
kito kawarazu aishiteru
3:13 PM
chapter 1
Title: Is that a word or confession? [part1]
Author: Fye
Editor: Nabb
Pairings: Aoi and Uruha. [Mainly focused on this pairing]
Content: PG 16. Shonen ai
Summary: it all started last spring…
Comment: I hope this story will turn out to be great. Credits to nabb for editing my vocabulary.
Aoi and uruha have been friends since they were young. It all started last spring. Aoi went out for a walk as usual, when a stranger came to aoi and grabbed him. Luckily uruha saw it, he ran to the stranger and punch him till’ he knocked the stranger down. They ran as fast as they could, when uruha tried to watch whether the stranger followed them, he was, and he was right behind of them but far off a bit, uruha dragged aoi to the alley way, hiding near the shade, trying to hide from the stranger.
“Aoi, daijoubu?? Are you okay?” asked uruha. “I’m okay. Thank you uru and don’t worry about me” replied aoi. “Your welcome, I’m glad you are safe” uruha replied and suddenly hugged him. After a while uruha released aoi and thought to himself. “I don’t want anyone to hurt your precious face nor body”. “What is that uru??” asked aoi. “Err… it’s nothing, I’m just glad that you are fine” said uruha. Aoi smiled to uruha. Uruha replied back with a smile. Uruha tried to watch whether the stranger went. When he was already gone… They came out from the shade and started walking home.
Next day at school…
Uruha just finished his class and saw aoi sitting on the lunch table alone. He decided to see him. The incident yesterday made him want to tell aoi about his feeling so that aoi would know how he felt about him and aoi allowed uruha to take care of him when something happen. Uruha tried to make up words in his head, about how should he tell aoi how he felt about him. But then again, he also hoped aoi would like him or even love him like the way he loved aoi, when he reached there…
When uruha was about to reach and tell him about his feeling, Kai came and interrupt. “Hey you guys” said Kai. “Us??” aoi asked. “Yeah you, who else?” Kai replied. Uruha suddenly turn disappointed. “Ne? Uru, do you have something you want to say?” aoi asked. “Nope, nothing” replied uruha. “Anyway you guys, aoi, uruha, do you want to join in a band?” kai asked. “A band???” both asked. “Yeah you know a band. Well since you both were good with guitars, I’m just thinking to start up a band, and who knows maybe someday we can be famous” said kai. “Ermm… I’ll think about it” replied uruha. “Hontou??? Really? A band? I love to! When will we start?” asked aoi. “Well right now I’m still searching for a vocalist and bassist you see, and another guitar player as a rhythm player. But… if uru wants to join in all I need is to search the vocalist and bassist. Ahh I will talk about it tomorrow so see you guys tomorrow.” Kai replied. “Well I’m off to class now, if you change your mind, uru, just tell me” kai said and left uruha and aoi and go back to his class.
“Well uru, that’s great isn’t it?? To be in a band? Don’t you want to join in?” asked aoi. “Well I’ll think about it, I will tell you first thing early tomorrow, okay” replied uruha. “Well okay then, but I really hope you will join the band, it’s a waste of talent you see if you don’t join them. You are really good playing the guitar” said aoi. “Emm, let’s go to class now, our next lesson will start soon” replied uruha pretending not to hear what aoi just said.
When class ended, everyone went back home. While walking home, Uruha was thinking what kai and aoi just said. “Should I join or not?” uruha said to himself. Reita saw uruha and said, “Hey uru! Why the long face? What are thinking about? Wait! Wait! Let me guess is it because of your love??” asked reita. “Love? You must be kidding me, there’s no one you see.” Uruha replied. “Hahaha I’m just kidding. Then tell me what happened? You look confused.” asked reita. Uruha suddenly remembered. “Hey reita! You play bass right? Bass guitar?” asked uruha. “Yea. I played them, why you ask?” replied reita. “Well you see the reason I’m so confuse just now was because I was thinking. Well you know kai right?” asked uruha. “Kai? Oh you mean the guy that always has girls around him but he never care but just ignored them, hehs don’t tell me you have a crush on kai??” asked reita.
“Heh? No way, I don’t have a crush on that person. What were you thinking? And yeah ‘that kai’.” Uruha replied. “Oh what about him?” asked reita. “Well he is starting a band, and he is searching for a bassist, you want to join in?” uruha asked. “Wow! A band? Really? Oh sure I want to join in. if it’s okay with kai.” Replied reita. “Ahh well then let’s meet up with him tomorrow at school.” Uruha replied. They talked till’ both reached their way home.
Uruha think and think over the night about joining the band, suddenly uruha remembered by how aoi just praised him; he blushed. “Maybe I should join…” he said to himself. “Plus I got the chance of seeing aoi after school everyday that would be great. Maybe I get the chance to tell my feelings towards him someday.” He chuckled then decided to join the band.
The next day at school early in the morning while uruha was on the way to school. He heard a voice calling him, similar to the person he know and love the most. “Uru! Uru! Wait up!” said the voice. Uruha turn back and saw aoi. His guess was right. He smiled. “Huh~ you are fast, anyway... anyway…” aoi trying to catch up breath. “Hmm?” uruha just let out a blank expression of his. “So have you decided?” finally aoi said after settling his breath. “What do you mean? Ahh you are talking about joining the band right?” asked uruha. “Yeah what else?” aoi replied. “Hmm well after thinking all night I decided to join them and…” uruha replied. When aoi heard what uruha said he jump out for joy. He hugged uruha. Uruha blushed when aoi suddenly hugged him. “I’m glad! I’m glad that you’ve decided to join the band” aoi replied. He released uruha and asked “btw and what?” “Hee… I show you later when we meet up with kai later, just wait.” Uruha replied.
END OF PART 1
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kito kawarazu aishiteru
3:11 PM
